Monday, February 22, 2010

The End of Trouble

Fourteen months ago, I lost my Grandpa Charlie. I didn't know that I'd be losing my Grandma - on the other side of the family - almost exactly three months after that. This past week, I lost my other Grandfather...

 Alexis & Grandpa CGHS Graduation 1991

Somewhere in my mind is that annoying voice that announces loudly, "Three down, one to go". Um - NO... I'm so not ready for that. But let me tell ya, I'm not the one in charge. Never have been, never will be.

It feels as though I've been sitting on the edge of my seat ever since those back to back funerals last year, dreading to see what would happen next. Somewhere in a recent post, I mentioned something about losing a dear cousin, as well as an Aunt this past year, and for a fleeting moment, I was hoping that would be the end of sad things, and missing people for a good long while. 

At times, I want so desperately to see an end in sight, not necessarily for myself, but for what this must be putting my parents through. I am smart enough to know that the only end to troubles in life IS death. I also know that if you have the Lord as the head of your life, then death is not something to be mourned, but celebrated. It makes grief easier to bear when those you love are with the Lord, but it also makes grief more difficult to cope with when you know they didn't have that focus on Christ.

My last remaining Grandparent, Grandma Alice, is still hanging in there. Her mind doesn't know us anymore, and her body spends most all of its time resting between visits from the attendants at her care facility and my Mom. Right now she's sick with a virus that someone unknowingly shared with her and it has caused Pneumonia. We don't even know if she'll make it through this coming weekend, but I'm sure that when she goes on to meet our Savior, which I have no doubts about, that we will be all rejoice that she is finally HOME and in a place that she can be free from the confinements of a human body.

On the topic of grief, a wonderful woman I know, a friend from my High School days, lost her younger sister in December. I had considered this friend and her two sisters to all be friends of mine at one time in my past, and when I heard of this death, it shook me up quite a bit. But to watch this woman go through her grief process, to see her reach out to others in her time of need has really amazed me. She never once lost faith.

Just yesterday, this friend from my past shared the shocking news that her older sister had just passed away as well. Completely unbelievable - that this precious woman of God would be dealt another astounding blow in such a short time. Yet again, within hours she was showing her faith. She was sharing the unwavering belief that God is holding her, and the family, through these dark hours. I'm not sure where she got it from, but here's what she posted this just this morning:

Faith is exactly what it takes to get through uncertainty. Faith is not necessary when you know how things are going to work out, - that's knowledge. It's in the time of unknowing that having faith is what sees you through to the other side. Faith is what gives you strength. Faith is that light in your heart that keeps on shining even when it's all darkness outside. Now is the time to keep that faith alive!

I do declare that I'm going to adopt this attitude, and start remembering just what it is that gets each and every one of us from one side of our day to the other. Thank you Lord, for using one person's grief to reach out and help heal mine. Amen.

Now it's time to get my rear in gear for our little road trip to California. Services are on Thursday.


Misty said...

this is a really great post. My heart is really aching for you. it's the one thing that really scares me about getting this old... I don't have grandparents left, unfortunately- but the loss of parents and siblings... yikes.
Sometimes i get really wrapped up in that fear, but this post reminds me why I shouldn't. thanks!

Anonymous said...

This message has great encouragement for believers. I'm thankful that my parents are in heaven where I'll see them again. I pray I can be sensitive to others who need Christ so they too can have faith in this life. I don't know how unbelievers survive the pain of grief.

Anonymous said...

I'm new to this style of message posting, so when I chose Anonymous, I didn't know how it would show up... this is Lois from LFCC.

purplemoose said...

OUCH! my heart is aching for you. We have had news this past week that puts me in a tail spin. So re-reading the "faith is exactly what it takes to get through uncertainty" it means a lot right now. Blessings to you Alexis!