Monday, March 9, 2009

To the girl with the curls

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Thirteen years ago... you showed up late to your own birthday party. Almost a week late... I remember because it was one heck of a long week! Ninety seven different people gave me advice on how to get my baby to hurry up and be born, and I tried all of those ideas. Well, except for one - I don't think cod liver oil was meant for human consumption.

Dear child, you were as stubborn then as you are now. You came out when you were darn well ready, and even then you made things difficult. We didn't know you were bungee jumping, and if we had, I would have planned your birthday a week earlier. Once we all finally realized your cord was too short, the doctors took you by an emergency c-section. Of course you gave me about 17 hours of hard labor along with all sorts of invasive monitoring first, just for fun. Quite a trauma for a first time Mom (and first time Grandparents too!) You royally freaked out the doctors because you were LOOKING at them when they made the incision in my abdomen. I'm not sure they were expecting you to be sunnyside up and staring them down!

As soon as you were born, you made some noise, and passed your tests pretty well, but then you went quiet. Not quiet in a scary way, but quiet in a "what IS this place?" kind of way. Your eyes were WIDE open and you spent most of your evening licking your lips and inspecting the faces of everyone that passed you around. You HATED your bath. You screamed like a stuck pig, and even now, I can remember that scream. And your bright red face. You were so mad! It is probably why I still have hearing problems. After your bath, your Dad had your footprint stamped onto his arm. He was so proud of you. I don't think he washed that arm for a month.

Our first few months with you were a complete blur. All I remember is you hardly ever slept (which meant I didn't either) and you fussed a lot whenever it came time for a meal. When you were a couple months old, we took you to the doctor because you had a slender figure while all the other babies your age were getting fatter. Not good for a 2 month old. When they labeled you a "Failure to Thrive" I thought I had failed you as a mother. Little did I know, it would certainly not be the FIRST time I would feel like a failure, but at least that time it would be easily corrected. I'm pretty sure you just have issues with delayed gratification, and waiting for "let down" wasn't in your vocabulary. You wanted everything NOW... some things haven't changed one bit. But thankfully you are thriving quite nicely now.


Your energy and zest for life are evident in everything you do. From the creative things you make, to the animals you love and adore... you are such a piece of Godly perfection.

It tickles me how you don't like people to notice you, but you wear really loud clothes and declare your independence by wanting purple hair. You are spunky, sassy, and have such a quick sense of humor that you really make me wear the "dum dum" label more than I'd like. You call me on my offenses, and keep me in check because you know that it matters. It cracks me up that you don't like any of your food to touch on your plate, but you'll cram everything imaginable into the blender just to make a "smoothie". You love being with other people because you're an extremely social creature. You desire nothing more than to be accepted for who God made you to be. Nothing more, nothing less. When you chose to try the trombone, we encouraged you because we knew how important it was to know the language of music. It thrills me that you love music as much as your family does, and that you share your tunes with me - just to get me to try new things. I like how you sing along when you think nobody is listening, because it's the only time I get to hear your pretty singing voice. I also love how protective you are of your siblings, even though you claim to not like them. We all know it's not true.


But most of all, I love your sweet self, and your willingness to forgive quickly - especially when many people have hurt you, or continue to hurt you. You are the first one who senses when something is wrong with me, and you are the first to come to me when you know that I'm unhappy. You always want to cheer me up and stop the tears, or be a complete goof just to get me laughing hysterically. You'll always be my baby - I'm just glad you don't keep me up all night every night anymore! But that's not because I don't worry about you non-stop, it's because I take sleeping pills now.



May you have a wonderful 13th year, my Firstborn Daughter!
I am so proud to be your Momma and I'm really excited to have our first girls only weekend together!

13 comments:

Livy said...

What a beautiful blog Lexie... and I love this child's pictures... her baby picture, the first one, OMGOSH, makes me wanna grab her and just hug her tight.

Angela said...

What a loved filled post...how precious.

Beth in NC said...

Very sweet!

Beth E. said...

Awww....this is a great blog! Brought tears to my eyes.

A new teenager...they grow up so fast, don't they? :o)

Blessings...

He And Me + 3 said...

That was absolutely beautiful. She sounds so fun! how neat that you are getting away just the two of you. Enjoy! I did that with my girls last summer individually, and it was the best thing ever. Have fun!

momof3darlings said...

awwww....what a BEAUTIFUL 'baby' girl! They sure grow up fast. :(

I left you a special message on my blog today!

Miriam said...

Happy birthday to your beautiful "baby" girl! She is spunky and fun, just as she ought to be! (Maybe she gets some of that from her momma?)

Misty said...

Thirteen... truthfully I can't even imagine...

Happy belated birthday to your lovely girl!

Jen (a.k.a. motor mouth) said...

What a beautiful post!!!!!!

The Bagenski Family said...

Oh Lexie I just loved this! What a beautiful gift for you and your daughter. Isn't it wonderful how journaling has turned into these awesome treasures for us all to share together and pass on to our babies.

She is absolutely beautiful. A perfect blend of her mother and father, pulling the best features from you both.

Thank you for sharing this! Happy Birthday Baby Girl!

alihsee said...

This is such a beautiful tribute to your daughter - I hope she treasures it always. Blessings!

Katie said...

Sweet little 'Sis. I thought of you all day on Monday. I ran through several great memories I have of you and T playing crazy games together as little babies. I miss seeing your smiling face on a daily basis. I love ya like you are one of my own! Happy 13 sweetheart!

Auntie KL

heidi said...

That was wonderful! Happy Birthday to her!!