Saturday, January 10, 2009

Feeling Wordless


Today was a difficult day. My sweet Grandpa is going downhill. He's leaving the hospital tomorrow to go back home where his ENTIRE adoring family will surround him and keep him comfortable until God is able to take his sense of humor take him home. Then, they'll have a party up there with the angels!

I don't really have many words to speak, so I'm going to let an OLD OLD POST from my OLD OLD BLOG (that you may or may not have seen at one point) tell you some words I think are worth repeating.

SEPTEMBER 29, 2007
I love my Grandpa in a way that many grandchildren don't get to enjoy. He has been such an inspiration to me of the kind of grandparent I want to be some day. My Grandpa just loved to spend time at the beach - and camping in his RV. He was one of those types that lived half the year in his RV when he got the chance. (Or, it seemed to be half a year to me, it was always too long!)

He taught me that you could go fishing with hot-dogs and marshmallows. He challenged me to spice life up a bit by daring me to shake dried hot peppers on my pizza. He encouraged me as a child to keep on trying, by blowing on a red light until it turned green. He taught me the true meaning of patience when he was surrounded by all of his grandchildren, none of whom were very quiet, and he smiled that amazing smile anyway.

He showed me what real grief felt like when, on a trip back from the beach with just me in the truck, he replayed the story of his little girl getting hit and killed on the road in front of their house. He showed me what forgiveness and grace looked like, when he would attend family functions even though my Grandmother, who he had long since divorced, was at those same functions. He showed me what true love was like when he cared for my Step-Grandma during the last stages of her fight with cancer. He showed me what genuine concern for others meant when he would have me stay the night at his house when I got off work late, instead of driving all the way home.

He showed me what it meant to not judge others BOTH times I ran out of fuel in my car on the highway and he came to my rescue. He also has showed me in numerous ways that loving your family and spending time with them CAN be a number one priority for a man. I am honored to have grown up as his Granddaughter. I am not ready for him to leave this earth, and I'm not sure I ever will be, but I am ready to honor him forever.



I should mention here, that I AM now ready for him to leave this earth, because now we know that his decision to accept Christ has paved the road for his eternity! The transition right now isn't so fun, but knowing where he will spend forever makes my heart soar.

I really appreciate all the concern and the prayers that have been expressed. Our family is hurting, it is normal, and it is ok. It just hurts really dang bad.

I'll try to post updates to Twitter (see my sidebar!) whenever I can.


14 comments:

Anonymous said...

This is the history of your grand-father that I am familiar with. It has always been very clear how much you love, respect and adore this grandpa of yours missy.

I've enjoyed your many stories of the man he is...

I know you are hurting and you know as well, that I am always near by if you need me.

Hang in there my friend... your grandpa's going home to see that precious daughter of his he lost so long ago... and can you imagine both of their beautiful faces when they see each other once more...

No doubt in my mind that she is there with him now, eager for him to meet with her... so while you stand by holding his hand here, what an honor to watch him meet up with both his beloveds past and our father in heaven...

You are a good girl Lexie... anybody would be lucky to call you family. =)

He And Me + 3 said...

I will still continue to pray. I know it hurts bad, but PTL you will see him again someday. So glad he will spend eternity with Jesus.

startastical said...

Oh, your heavy heart. It is so hard to lose the most wonderful people in our lives. You are in my thoughts and prayers as you traverse this painful journey.

Dana-from chaos to Grace said...

Alexis, I am so very sorry. :( It's never easy, especially ones we are closest to. He sounds like an amazing man! God blessed you RICHLY with him!

You are in my prayers, sweetie. :(

heidi said...

(((Alexis))) Thinking of you today.

Misty said...

my dear friend... {{{hugs}}} for you. My thoughts, and prayers, are with you and your family...

Mrs. B said...

I'm very sorry for your loss.

Amydeanne said...

hugs and prayers Alexis. I know it's hard to watch when we see people we love hurting so much!

Speaking from the Heart said...

Your grandfather was an angel on earth. Now he will be angel in heaven. As always, he will be watching over you.

Miriam said...

Oh, Lex, I'll be praying for your family. HUGS.

Jen said...

Just saw your Twitter update and wanted to say that I'm very sorry for your loss. My prayers are with you and your family.

Katie said...

Oh my friend. I am so sad to hear that your Grandad is no longer here on earth to share more of life with you and yours but I am so incredibly happy to know that he is home with JESUS.

I love you Lexie. My heart goes out to you and your family. You know I consider you all part of my family~if you need ANYTHING...I am here.

Beth E. said...

What a sweet post about your grandfather. How awesome that you have shared such a special bond with him! Both of my grandfathers died before I got to know them.

Continuing to pray for you and your family.

Shabby Olde Potting Shed said...

I'm so sorry Alexis. I know you're hurting and reliving all those wonderful memories of your precious Grandfather.

The love you shared about him... touched me deeply. I'm so thankful that He knew the Lord... and that you'll be together again.

I'm huggin you!!
Lea