Saturday, May 17, 2008

And Then There Were Tears

Finished off a beautiful day, got lots done, and then it was off to our annual Youth Group Dinner and Auction. As usual, our family took home quite a few things (including some gorgeous cedar planting boxes that Mr Nice Guy snuck a bid in on just for ME!! I love him. But oh, how our happy, fun-filled evening turned to grief in the flash of an instant.

My best friend radar went off and I noticed one of my besties, sobbing her eyes out, was headed for the door. I rushed to her and uncovered the news that a friend from our church, had just lost her husband in a car accident on his way home from Florence. Utter and complete devastation. A life, snuffed out in an instant. My friend was much closer to this couple than I was. She lived closer to them, and they spent lots of time together. This couple was a hurting couple and my friend spent many hours mentoring them, and just being a loving example of Christ in their lives. This couple was struggling. She - a very strong woman, with a degree of energy and intensity that I rarely see in myself. He - with a weakness for temptations of the flesh. They had seen rough times. But recently had decided to make things better, and we'd just last week seen him attending church with her again. We prayed for this family a lot. She was my secret sister last year, and crazy enough, I was hers.

My heart aches for how this wife, turned widow in one afternoon, must be feeling tonight. It's one of those feelings that you don't want to uncover because you fear that you'll cry so hard that your heart will break into a million pieces. Mr Nice Guy is getting held a little tighter tonight. His eyes well up sooner than usual and we slip glances at each other. Knowing glances. Appreciative glances. I am so glad he is here, and he is so grateful for my presence. He brought up life insurance. He talked about how I would be taken care of if he had an accident. He wanted me to feel secure.

I'll never feel secure if he isn't here no matter now much insurance he has, or how far his retirement benefits will go. That doesn't matter to me because I think I would die inside if he were gone.

Go, right now. Hug someone you love and hold them extra close. Just for a minute. Sometimes a minute is all you'll have left.

5 comments:

Ricky Danger said...

I wondered what had you feeling sad. I am deeply and tremendously sorry for your families loss of a friend...

Last week a young woman here had her first baby... and as soon as they cut that babies umbelical cord, he went back to Heaven...

Loss of life can happen at a moments notice and like you said, about being afraid of letting your emotions go there...

I don't want to imagine what life would be like with out my husband or my children. They mean everything in the world to me...

I love you Lexie. I hope you find comforts today in Bryan.

farm suite said...

I am so, so sorry to hear of this tragedy. Praying for you and your friends.

Toni said...

Wow, that is hard. We truly need to love and treat everyone kindly, because we never, ever know when we will get that chance again.

So glad to hear their last days together were filled with hope and renewal.

My prayers are also with all of you.

Misty said...

horrible isn't it? To admit that this woman's reality is my worst fear... Poor thing. Bless her heart. My own heart is aching for her and while I'd planned to catch up on blogs- instead I am off to snuggle up to my husband.

Farm Chick said...

So very sad. I'll be sending lots of prayers your way.